Today was a good day for me... it didn't start out that way! Definitely not! I woke up, checked my email and puttered on the computer for awhile. Facebook is awesome and at the same time, can be a major negative for my contentment levels - especially when I see many of my college friends posting pics of their children or just plain enjoying their children. There is a crazy ache inside of me that starts throbbing and logically - I know that God has a plan, I know that we are blessed in ways others aren't, I know all (okay - not ALL, but a lot!) of the logical, practical (even theological) aspects of why I should be content and feel totally blessed - but instead, I find myself feeling dejected and miserable and wanting what I don't have. Add to that a few other issues that have left me stressed and we've got the perfect recipe for Disaster Day!
However - it didn't stay that way! Honestly! My mom called... and I just spent some time venting and crying. Then, Cory's mom called and we had a really good talk - Thanks, Moms! Then, tonight - I went to a Multimedia Team meeting/training. At the risk of sounding arrogant, its nice to be good at something! I'm not perfect or an expert - but it feels good to be doing something I enjoy. And it feels good to be contributing and "in the know."
After the meeting, I just visited with the Saluzzos for about 15 minutes. Mere has always made me feel as if I have something to offer - from the first time I met her. :) She's has this incredible talent at making me feel like inlcuded and wanted. Pretty cool. It was nice to visit with their family for a little while.
What is a bad day or a good day - other than our attitudes, right? I mean - really crappy things could happen, but if our attitude was optimistic and positive, it wouldn't seem so bad. On the other hand, wonderful things could happen and a pessimistic attitude ruins the day. I guess that is why JOY is a choice and not simply a feeling. If only I could make that truth real in my every day life.